Thursday, February 5, 2009

Weird Lesson

From a time I don't even remember how long, I have been learning a lesson which has proved very valuable in many ways. It's really very simple, almost laughably so! And even if I cannot seem to find a good reason as to why it is so, inwardly, I know it's just right… or rather, it would be wrong if it wasn't so… because I've come to believe nothing can be really proved true, all you can prove is that it's converse is false…

So, the big secret.
When you get where you've been trying to get with all your might, leave! When you get what you've been dying to get, shun it. When you learn all the rules of the game, break them.

Weird! Why on earth would we do all that, slog so hard, when we want to throw it all away in the end? It's absurd. It's silly. It's an excuse made by people who never really get there. I gave myself all these answers, trying desperately to find sense in something that seems so pointless!

My first taste of this inexplicable rule was while learning art. I'm strangely drawn towards simplicity, and this trait manifested itself in my art too… but I quickly realized that I could only reach it when I was done perfecting the complex. When you can understand the complexities involved, when you can be perfect at handling them, then you can say, “I don't care about these”. Not until then.

The rule, almost sinisterly, finds roots in every aspect of life. It applies everywhere, almost like a trap, and a denying soul feels it closing in. But shake off the inhibitions and embrace it, and it gives you a sense of power. And a beautiful sense of security. Something that cannot be taken away… or maybe something that you don't care if taken away…

There is a danger though… most of the times we have no clue we are in this. No clue that what we want is something we won't want once we get it. It is by no means easy. Many don't ever realize it… maybe because many just never reach their goal. And most don't understand it. Perhaps that's why we see so much dissatisfaction…?

And as if to add a finishing touch, it spins itself a converse. It makes you value things that you do not have or levels that you haven't reached… as if a particular thing needs to be earned. You have to be worthy of something to get it. It gives you an essential reason to change, develop, improve in order to achieve something. It is transformative for those who dream of, say, ideals… for such it is the 'guiding light' that shows them the way. And you follow the light. Only to realize that when you reach, it isn't the light you want to see. But then, what do you want to see?

Meantime, you have traveled and come far.
And we come to another (cliché) thought.
That beauty lies not in the goal but the journey… (?)

As if I haven't really said anything new in this post. Just discovered for myself (have I yet?) what others have already discovered…